sigh. joyce is having inner conflict within herself. haha, you know i really love reading fiction books. but i realise they always have the same storyline. you know single girl living in this cosmopolitan city and either hurting from a really bad breakup / has a ex they are still in love with/ blahblah and somehow out of ALL the guys they meet this dashing guy who's totally sweet, caring, most of the time rich, good in bed, etc. ' the perfect guy ' somehow or rather this books make me have some sense of loss, like i'm missing something in life. and i have this rather sad feeling that these guys can never come to life you know. and that i'm never gonna have this happy ending like in the books. which is the girl gets the guy la. be it the one they couldnt get over or some new totally perfect guy. i guess you know what i mean. haha

as much as i hate all this typical ending and cliched storylines, i love reading them. argh! maybe it's because i'm able to escape this world by reading them? sometimes i think we ought to kill these fiction authors and DISNEY. haha cos they put these ideas in our head. you know like preconceived notions that all girls WOULD EVENTUALLY have a happy ending with their PRINCE charming. ironic eh, i can totally see through them yet i fall prey to them. and i bet i sound cynical yet longing. sorry la, this means INNER CONFLICT ok. haha ok i feel like i'm having split personalities or something.

oh man too bad sidney sheldon died. ): then i wouldnt be reduced to reading this fiction. maybe then i'll be more motivated to be a career woman. gosh, i wanna change my blogskin yet i'm lazy to sift the ones i actually like from the over 1000+ blogskins. yep, THAT IS HOW I FOUND THIS SKIN OK. ok i feel like reading my book yet i dont want too cos it would make me disillusioned. ok yes i know i'm this weird person that cannot seem to make up her mind. OH, and i finally bought myself a little mermaid dvd. (: i have the vcd la, just that i think the quality's kinda bad and by owning a dvd, i would be able to keep it longer oh and watch better quality little mermaid. :D oh and i realised eric, from little mermaid, has dimples! hmm coming to think of it, i dont know alot of guys with dimples.

and i went places today. hahah went kovan, bishan, novena. met up with nornor, mel ,keith and met thomas at kovan! gosh feeling tired. and how come some little people online tonight! oh man i cant find any nice picture of prince eric. ): ohwell the icon above shall be dedicated to my entry today.